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If I had a twin tomorrow would be her birthday...and I'd like to give you a quote...

*Just home, I was out of town for my birthday...Spent it with the one responsible for it. My Mother. I had a great time. Wonderful food and presents...I will draw on Sunday for the "Quote"...Thanks for the wishes everyone! xo*

Tomorrow I enter a new age...I love being born so close to the new year...I feel as though I have a five day buffer for thinking about the changes I want to see in the New Year...

I have a had a rough year. I am glad to be moving into 2011...Into another age...

I've been wondering about my tendency to nothingness. I think I am lazy. I said this to a Doctor once and he wholeheartedly disagreed with me ~ depression he said...I felt good when he said that. An affirmation that I was ill, not lazy. And when the end result is the same, what difference does it make what causes the problem? Does a diagnosis of depression mean I get a "time-out" and life will stop until I am well enough? No. It still moves at it's relentless pace...However, in these last few years, I have been lazy. Not in everything obviously, but in the things I value most. Why? Why would I become lazy about the essential parts of my life?

My health. My work. My home. My people.

In short I think I am overwhelmed most of the time. I am very sensitive to everything around me. Especially light, noise, scent, and emotion. So with the next few months I am going to unravel the things that overwhelm and distract and get rid of them. I will cleanse and finish and renew to to walk hand in hand with this new year and new age instead of being left in it's dust...Those pieces of the old me...

I feel as though I am on the edge of slipping into the nether...That with this age and these habits I can easily become the person I hate most. My heath and sanity are at a crisis point.
I will not live with unconsciousness and ennui. I will not be ruled by emotion or laziness or habit.

Starting today. Starting now.

Rules...{some to share ~ other's are secret!}
1. To bed early {before 11pm}
2. To rise early {before 7:30am}
3. Work on the reno's everyday. The biggest threat to my sanity and comfort...
4. Photograph everyday.
5. Eat very well 5 of 7 days. Reducing migraine triggers such as chocolate, cheese, red wine. Bah! Shoot me now! ;)
6. Move everyday.
7. Communicate with those I love and like and cherish everyday.
8. Get rid of magazines and books that are no longer needed...{gasp!}
9. Clean up digital world.
10. Drastically reduce the amount of clothing I have yet do not wear...I am thinking of "the 6 items or less" challenge type of thing...or this.
11. Go out into the world...Fearlessly.

My Word of the Year...{words}
Word{s} of the Year ~ 2011
My intentions are very clear...

I have a little magnet I'd like to offer you...
I love this Quote. Unknown knows his/her stuff!
Through a draw of the "Commentees"...Tell me something you did for your Self that made a big difference in your life...Or, your Word of the Year...

Much Love.
xoxox

CrowNology

13 comments:

Maria-Thérèse ~ www.afiori.com said...

Tomorrow is my birthday too! The 5th! It's just 19 minutes away for me :D

I find your vows inspiring and hope you'll feel better super soon. You are SO moving in the right direction, it seems to me.

Maria-Thérèse ~ www.afiori.com said...

heeeheee! Came back here just to see if we do look alike! :D
Happy Birthday in.... 6 minutes! Woohooo!

gallerydarrow said...

Happy Birthday yes I mean the happy part. Self assuredness I'm ditching unrewarding and hurtful relationships. I'm taking myself back because friendship is a true and precious gift, to me anyways.

xoxoxox

lejardengirl said...

omgosh!!! it's my birthday on the 5th too...i knew we had a connection....beth

Lizzy Derksen said...

Something that made a difference? I decided not to give up when I made a mistake. No matter how many times I did.

Grey Lemon said...

Very Happy Birthday!!

Big difference in my life... At some point I'd say: Identify which problems are mine and which belong to others... (ie: in family!)

My word for this year? Sweetness & Harmony!

Magdalena said...

Happy Birthday Andrea!
ideal of 7 things, going to bed early and wake up to enjoy the morning light, to photograph every day, to move more .. are really good ideas for the new year and I think I should have those in my list. ..
Once again Happy Birthday!

hugs

MrsLittleJeans said...

Wow Andrea, Happy Birthday! Sorry I was late. I have good excuses though.

I like the quote, Life is about creating yourself...
i like my word for the year to be faith...as ye have faith so shall it be...

xoxo

Victoria Bennett Beyer said...

Happy birthday! I wish you clarity and the strength to 'create' the you that you want, and peace to accept and love who you are every day of that journey.

I have yet to decide on my new year's thing - last year it was thinking locally in all I did with my art. I have yet to pinpoint something (one or two things) that I'd like to work on. I choose them carefully because I do carry them close to the front of my mind all year. I think, though, it may have to do with being bold, as opposed to timid, when it comes to promoting my art. I did a few (kinda) bold things last year and they were all fruitful.

Might I mention something else, though? As far as holding it all together, emotionally I mean, I practice redirection. When I have a negative thought, I immediately replace it with a positive one. I, too, have a tendencey to let everything around me dictate my emotional state, and that is exhausting. But I've been practicing redirection for some time now and the longer I do it, the more natural it feels. Sounds silly, maybe, but I suspect you are highly aware of what is influencing you and how much power it can have over you (when you let it). Just some food for thought.

Besh wishes!

Tammy said...

I can't find your email!! Email me please...just wanted to ask a quick question...thanks! :)

Tammie Lee said...

Hello Andrea
and a wonderful birthday to you too~

Your clarity and list is wonderful. I sense these things will bring you results that you are wanting to experience. Wishing you courage and ability to live your dreams.

Wishing you a year that feels wonderful to you!

Amalia K said...

Hi Andrea, happy birthday to you! Here's to a magical and fulfilling 2011...

And thank you for visiting my blog... now here I am again, catching up on your brilliant photographs! So much talent flows out of you!

oxx

Tena said...

Darn it. I'm late in wishing you happy birthday. I do hope you had a warm and loving day.

Hugs and hope all your wishes come true!

XOXO
Tena