If I had a twin tomorrow would be her birthday...and I'd like to give you a quote...

*Just home, I was out of town for my birthday...Spent it with the one responsible for it. My Mother. I had a great time. Wonderful food and presents...I will draw on Sunday for the "Quote"...Thanks for the wishes everyone! xo*

Tomorrow I enter a new age...I love being born so close to the new year...I feel as though I have a five day buffer for thinking about the changes I want to see in the New Year...

I have a had a rough year. I am glad to be moving into 2011...Into another age...

I've been wondering about my tendency to nothingness. I think I am lazy. I said this to a Doctor once and he wholeheartedly disagreed with me ~ depression he said...I felt good when he said that. An affirmation that I was ill, not lazy. And when the end result is the same, what difference does it make what causes the problem? Does a diagnosis of depression mean I get a "time-out" and life will stop until I am well enough? No. It still moves at it's relentless pace...However, in these last few years, I have been lazy. Not in everything obviously, but in the things I value most. Why? Why would I become lazy about the essential parts of my life?

My health. My work. My home. My people.

In short I think I am overwhelmed most of the time. I am very sensitive to everything around me. Especially light, noise, scent, and emotion. So with the next few months I am going to unravel the things that overwhelm and distract and get rid of them. I will cleanse and finish and renew to to walk hand in hand with this new year and new age instead of being left in it's dust...Those pieces of the old me...

I feel as though I am on the edge of slipping into the nether...That with this age and these habits I can easily become the person I hate most. My heath and sanity are at a crisis point.
I will not live with unconsciousness and ennui. I will not be ruled by emotion or laziness or habit.

Starting today. Starting now.

Rules...{some to share ~ other's are secret!}
1. To bed early {before 11pm}
2. To rise early {before 7:30am}
3. Work on the reno's everyday. The biggest threat to my sanity and comfort...
4. Photograph everyday.
5. Eat very well 5 of 7 days. Reducing migraine triggers such as chocolate, cheese, red wine. Bah! Shoot me now! ;)
6. Move everyday.
7. Communicate with those I love and like and cherish everyday.
8. Get rid of magazines and books that are no longer needed...{gasp!}
9. Clean up digital world.
10. Drastically reduce the amount of clothing I have yet do not wear...I am thinking of "the 6 items or less" challenge type of thing...or this.
11. Go out into the world...Fearlessly.

My Word of the Year...{words}

My intentions are very clear...

I have a little magnet I'd like to offer you...

Through a draw of the "Commentees"...Tell me something you did for your Self that made a big difference in your life...Or, your Word of the Year...

Much Love.
xoxox

♥♥♥CrowNology